A few weeks ago I was catching up on a lot of things I needed to do. I felt productive and on top of the world! I started a bath, had some meal prep items to get ready, and a whole plan for the day.
Moments later, I ran into my bathroom to see water on the floor and the faucet still running.
Sometimes our plans change way faster than we can predict, and for all kinds of reasons. What has helped me during this time has been the work I’ve done around “shoulds”.
I’ve been letting go of what things in my life “should” look like, what my relationships “should” be, how much I “should” have in my bank account, and am focused on working with what is. Focusing on the shoulds creates unnecessary suffering, and if my executive functioning had the space for that, I may not have flooded my bathroom.
But I did, and the way to move forward from this is to take accountability for what has happened and learn from it.
It wasn’t just that I wasn’t mindful that day. It was that I was overwhelmed with so many things I was trying to juggle all at once that I was trying to get way too much done in one day.
So I am taking this expensive lesson, and moving forward and using it to the best of my ability.
Reducing my own suffering has helped a lot in continuing to focus on my clients while people have been in my home working on things, challenge avoidance in responding when my attention is needed, and managing panic attacks when hearing large numbers of the cost of this mistake being thrown around.
That part has been nice.
So in case you’re wondering why my consultations are marked down for the rest of the year, it’s because I made an expensive mistake. If you want to book some time, here’s the link. Enjoy!
